Which Side of the Bed Do You Sleep On?

Dear, Marilyn

Which side of the bed did you sleep on? I'm not quite sure which side of the bed is mine. I wonder if that means anything? Like, am I "still finding myself", or am I unconventional or whatever?

When I'm alone I mostly sleep on the left side, although sometimes I sleep om the right and often times right in the center. When the boy from the sea and I share a bed, he usually sleeps on the left, me on the right.

There's only been one other guy to stay over, Kelly. When Kelly's spent the night, I sleep on the right, him on the left.

Maybe it has to do with roles. Boy from the sea is a little older than me, a little more dominant, taller, more confident than I am. Kelly on the other hand is younger, shorter, less confident, I'm a little more dominant.

What do you think? I'm overanalyzing this aren't I?

I Knew A Boy, He Came From The Sea

Dear, Marilyn

I'm in an odd mood tonight. Not a bad mood, more like a good mood really, but it's different. I feel like my life might be slowly shifting into place, or (at the risk of sounding like a horoscope) like something is on the horizon.

I'm relieved to be speaking to my "best friend", again. He's a boy I know, "He came from the sea", we'll call him, Boy from the sea. The truth is, he really is my best friend, but things got complicated between us, for a while there... until he decided to simplify things. He didn't think it was a good idea to carry on with our extra curricular activities. I was really hurt; it didn't go down smoothly and we weren't speaking as much. Things had changed between us. This weekend we both went to a mutual friends party and we made up... and hooked up again. Our friendship fell right back into place. He's the first guy I've ever had feelings for; the first person I hooked up with. After "going there" with him again, I feel much better about the situation. Even though those few weeks when we weren't speaking much, as unsettling as it was, I think I grew tremendously from it. Oddly, things are more complicated now, but I understand what his intentions were.

Timing might not be on our side now, but who knows what the future holds? I'm just glad to have an ally again.